i was going back home after dropping off something at ching's after mamaking in bnagsar. as i was driving  along the flyover opposite eastin hotel, the car in front of me did an emergency swerve to avoid something in the fast lane. me being in the fast lane, i had to avoid the "thing" as well. bottomline, when i turned to change lanes, i obviously noticed somethign wrong, my car was acting funny. it was as if my sterring wheel was disconnected from the wheels. (at this point, i was on top of a fly over, and turning left meant that i was heading to the metal railings standing between me and certain death) i turned hard right, but no response, until at last my car began to jerk right.. but i found myself still in trouble, because the car turned too tightly, and i did a 180-degree turn, and now i was facing the on-coming traffic, and my car was still moving. at this point, i knew the car was oout of my control, and i was kinda bracing myself for the worst. that was when everything went all weird.

i definately heard the impact, i was sure i felt the impact. yet i felt insulated from it. i was fully consious of myself and was bracing myself to get injured, but "nothing" happened to me as per say. it felt like an eternity, but it was an eternity that passed in a few seconds. needless to say, it was very disorientating. my car hit the concrete barrier on the right side of the road with a loud bang (cracked and shattered plastic sound) skidded and dragged along the wall of the barrier. until it finally came to a stop.. still facing the oncoming traffic. i got out unbruised, but i couldn't say less for my car. well, the rest of teh night was irriatating. the human vultures known as call men flocked down and tried in many various persuasive arugements to get me to use their services (no where else have i ever seen the three races working together so "harmoniously").

the first thought after the crash was "crap, i can't believe this jsut happened." followed by "mom's gonna KILL me".. and then back to the first thought again.

but now as i look at it... if there were another car nearby or behind me, things would be worse. if my car hadn't responded and i went straight over the edge, well, i would have died, and worse, landed on someone else. if i had hit the barrier on the driver's side, i do not think i would be unharmed. i guess i do need to thank God for keeping me safe. i know He did. there is no doubt about it, that during the whole thing, i felt no fear, i actually felt SAFE.. because He was protecting me. i will face the music on this episode.. but what i'm going to walk away from this is that God spared my life. He saved it in more ways than one.

so i ask, What do you do when your life is saved from certain death? -you live it in such a way that you do not just throw it away as if it didn't matter. you realise your life is precious. i will live my life for God. more so now than i did before.

remember timothy.. when life paints you into a corner, when life dirves you into the dessert of the soul, no one else to rely on.. no friends, no family.. when you feel isolated.. know that its because God wants you to find refuge in Him. He makes Jesus all you have, so that you will realise that Jesus is all you really need. and in there find restoration.

reading Psalm57, when David was driven in his wilderness, rejected and a  broken man. and now awaiting my restoration.